High Fructose Corn Syrup : Anal leakage, running the entire scale from "misting" up to "hurricane," depending on volume and duration of exposure. During peak saturation (approximately 2001), I was changing underwear (and outer-wear) twice a day. Like you needed to hear that.
Aspartame : Headache, joint-ache, and a general mental "wooziness" accompanied by the total obliteration of short term memory. Symptoms equivalent to a finger of whiskey and the non-puking aspects of the flu, simultaneously. The last time I exposed myself to this vile TURNS INTO FORMALDEHYDE FUCK YOU RUMSFELD shite was during a pepsi/iTunes promotion. The work water fountains are even more disgusting, and I wasn't about to give Apple my credit card information. To this day, aspartame-induced buys remain my only iTMS purchases.
Sucralose : Anxiety. Symptoms vary depending on intake - a sugar free Sobe Adrenaline Rush will induce anxiety to such a minimal degree that it mixes in with the rest of the "buzz" whereas a No Fear (whatever they call it, that's the brand name) sugar free rents my brain out to Baikonur for rocket testing. I swear, the top of my head's going to blow clean off. As the side effects of aspartame are disgusting and the side effects of sugar deeply diminish my work capacity, this has been my "artificial sweetener" of choice for the past two or three years. Which explains a lot, really. The local minimart regularly runs out of sugar free sobe and has yet - EVER - to run out of the No Fear variety. Now I know why. Odds are pretty fucking fantastic that a sucralose reaction is a big factor in recent mental difficulties. The question is : what to replace it with?
Sugar (specifically sugar-based energy drinks - Red Bull, Sobe, etc) : Feels like my teeth have been dunked in sandy acid; a sludgy, rickety "high" of tunnel vision followed by a rapid plummeting crash into synaptic molasses. Energy drinks like the Mountain Dew branded "Amp" or the sugar-friendly version of Sobe Adrenaline Rush* taste gritty, leaving an "unclean" feeling in my mouth, followed by the aforementioned rickety pep. For Emergency Use Only.
Caffeine : Focus and a degree of pep, until it wears off.
Ritalin, Adderall, other prescription amphetamine salts** : Same as caffeine. Lasts about twice as long and after awhile I start to feel like the nerves in my thighs are starting to itch.
Starbuck's Doubleshot Espresso : Yes, it's a Starbuck's product. Fact is it's the only drink that provides Awake and Go without Grit, Drip, or Rocket Brain. The fact it's a pain in the ass to get my hands on whereas the rest are legion... well, that's medical america for you. As that google-proofed philospher dude said back before they put the dead guy on the stick - consider diet.
Regular Coffee : Makes my sphincter sneeze and drizzle like it's got hay fever. Yeah, you needed THAT visual. If I liked spray-painting the walls with my ass I'd still be drinking the stuff.
I'm sure Chuck Palahniuk would dunk your brains in an orgy of anal and neurological delights. Burroughs would get hung up about the rectal mucous and obsess about that and venusian invaders for an entire book.
I'm neither. I am, in fact, impeded. Diet informs and this here is a question of extent. Deprived of my SAUCE would I be Mister Rogers, Dave Lister, or Dick Cheney? How much of who I "am" is a result of chemical stimuli or more relevantly my "improper" reaction to said stimuli?
Prinny, dood.
My chief consideration, as always - there's never enough daylight. If I could subsist on four hours of sleep I damned well would. I will be on some kind of upper until I either spontaneously combust or calcify. Or both. Picture that.
* Both the "amp" and the sobe probably use hideous amounts of HFCS - I don't have empties here to check. Not the point. Point is they taste gritty, not yummy. And they impact accordingly.
** Last actual exposure to prescription-grade amphetamine (or amphetamine of any kind, actually) was in 2006. Example provided for context. |